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| Wow, it’s
been since October that I’ve put anything up here. A lot of things have changed since then, and
life has been through a few ups and downs in the past few months. I’ve moved away from using xanga and been
sucked into the very thing I swore I would avoid. So if you want to stay up to date on what’s
going on with me, stop by www.myspace.com/squash82. I’ll leave you with a couple of things that
have happened in the last couple of months.
Michelle and I broke up in early December. It’s not where I thought we would be after 11
months of dating. I guess life makes
some changes along the way, sometimes ones that aren’t easy. Work was a killer in December, but after
taking about 3 weeks of vacation, I’m now glad to be back and settled into a
nice routine. I’m getting used to living
with people again, I spent quite a few years living alone and now that I’ve
been living with 2 other guys for a few months I think I’m getting used to this. I’m really looking forward to
getting into some good routines and am finally starting down that path. Spending some good time doing devotions and
being to work at 9 every morning is something that crazy enough I’m looking
forward to. Anyways if you want to stay
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| It's so weird for me to be sitting here watching a wedding rehearsal in a building other than mine. I've been to so many weddings and rehearsals over the course of the past 3 years that it's almost numbing. The only thing that is different about this one is that this is the first time in 3 years that i've been to a wedding rehearsal that i wasn't being paid to be there. Something like 50 weddings in the past 3 years, and to think that i've been paid to be at all of those rehearsals until this one.
Michelle once asked me if going to a lot of weddings would make my own less meaningful. It is interesting to think that perhaps being around weddings a lot would make them less meaningful to me. The truth is though, that I don't think it's less meaningful, just less impressive. I know now that there are a lot of things that I would do just because I wouldn't want it to be just another wedding, just more of the same.
Weddings aside, in some ways life it self has components that get less impressive the older I get. Things that used to be so interesting and intriguing are no longer as much. I guess that's just what happens when you grow up. I don't mean to say this because I think that life is boring by any means. I think that as we get older, the things that are most impressive aren't the smoke and mirrors anymore, but honest truth and sincerity.
I would tend to believe that we in as a culture are ready for this honest truth, we're seeking for reality and sincerity in the world around us. My generation is the one that just might finally get back to the roots of what's really important in life. The only thing that is so sad about this journey is that there are so many other things in the world that are getting in the way. The pursuit of money, sex, the easy lifestyle. Sometimes I think that all of this things are really something that was passed down to us from our parents generation and now we've tried to pick up those pieces and make sense of them. The problem is that we'll never find what we're looking for if we spend our whole lives putting together the wrong puzzle.
God please save our generation. I know from personal experience how easy it is to be lead astray.
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| For all
of you out there that might have thought that I died, I'm sorry. A few months overdue, but I'm
finally back online and ready to update.
Life has been a bit crazy since I got back from Ireland, but
still no excuse for how long I've let my xanga go unattended.
Ireland was a blast; I would recommend
it to anyone. The flights all went
smoothly, and the over all trip went off without a hitch. It was amazing to step out of my normal
comfortable role of being the scenes and actually do some real one on one
interaction with people. Between my
brief role as an actor and doing dramas, I also honed in on my balloon animal
making skills and also did a little beach front apologetics. It was such an exciting trip; I already want
to sign up to go back to Ireland
next year.
The
harsh reality hit when I got home that I had 2 weeks of work to makeup plus
everything to get ready for fall. I feel
like I've been playing catch up ever since.
There's a lot that has been happening this fall already, but yet doesn't
seem like a whole lot has changed. One
of the bigger changes for me is that I moved.
I'm now living with a couple of other guys in a house in Lansing. It's going to be a lot different than what I
am used to, having a place of my own for so long and all. I think that overall it's going to be a good
experience for me though. It's been
about a week now, so we'll see as time progresses.
On a
more personal level, I have been feeling really uneasy about life lately. I have this feeling of discontentment, like
there's something big missing in my life.
I know that my relationship with God isn't where it should be, and that
is most likely what is making me feel this way.
I still can't help thinking though that my relationships with other
people and maybe even my work is also playing a part in this. I guess I just need to pray for peace and
direction. In the past knowing the
direction that I was supposed to go was easy, but now it's seemly a little
harder to know what to do next. I think
I'll just hold tight, not make and drastic changes, and honestly pray about what's next for my life. I really don't
think I successfully could play this out any other way.
Anyways,
I should get going. I'm sorry that
I haven't been in contact with a lot of you lately. Please don't take it personally; I'd love to
get back in contact. If anyone is
interested, I'm always up for a good cup of coffee and a nice chat, so drop me
a note sometime or call my cell. Love
you all much!
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So I keep saying something about wanting to update more often, but honestly right now that just isn’t happening like I would hope. This past week has been way busy getting ready for Ireland. That’s right, Saturday morning at the butt crack of dawn I leave for Detroit where I’ll catch my first flight ever. We’re flying to Atlanta for a 5 hour layover and then it’s off to Shannon Ireland.
I never really thought of myself as a performer. I’ve always worked behind the scenes in one way or another, but this missions trip is going to be a little different. I’ve been assigned the wonderful task of performing in 2 character sketches playing the parts of David and Jonah. It should be interesting to see how that works out. I guess there was one point in time that I did a couple of drama things way back in middle school, but for the most part I’ve spent my life supporting the drama with sound or lights but not really playing in it. I’ve been around theatre enough that I might even make a halfway decent director with a little work. I guess that’s a road I never really thought about going down before.
Well here’s to the last minute details of getting everything pulled together. I really hope that Michelle and I have a wonderful time on this trip. It’s really going to be our first time getting way for an extended period together. So this should be a good learning experience for us and the new dynamic it brings to our relationship. More importantly though will be the way that God will use us, stretch us out of our comfortable little lives, and see what amazing things can happen when we just follow Him.
I’ll try to update all of you with details sometime during the trip or when I get back. Hope all is well, I’ll miss you while I’m away. | | |
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For
some odd reason I’ve been feeling really tired lately. I sleep like 10 hours a night and still don’t
want to get out of bed in the morning. I’m
hoping this passes soon, never really liked the being tired thing.
Well
here we are, it’s almost the end of June.
Somehow I knew this summer would go by too quickly. There’s so much to still be done, so much to
still see and experience, but alas, it hasn’t happened yet. Hopefully this next week I’ll get some time
away from work to relax a little bit. That
reminds me, if anyone has something exciting happening for the 4th and
doesn’t mind a tag along, I’m looking for something to do. Michelle is going to be with her family in
upstate New York,
so I’m free to travel and do whatever.
That came out a little strange, almost sounded like my freedom is away
from Michelle. Whatever, the 4th
I need something to do.
Lately
I’ve begun to realize how easy it is to be discontent with life. There’s always something more that I want,
and yet somehow wanting it seems more exciting than actually getting it in the
end. New toys always grow old, new
experiences are only new for so long. I
need to remember to find my contentment in something other than the pursuit of
more.
Well I
best be off. I have an Ireland meeting
tonight and am getting a bit hungry, so eating before hand might be a good idea
for me. I hope that I’m not developing diabetes. I just always get really run down and tired
if I haven’t eaten for a few hours.
Maybe it’s normal, I dunno … different stage of life and all. Anyways I really am off. Hope everyone is enjoying their summer!
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